Welcome to my mind

Please be advised, nothing is disguised..

 01/19/15

This is me, this is my mind,
this is me trying to withstand time.
It may look sorta' cluttered, it may look kinda' messy, ...
It's kinda' like a nightmare, but filled with confetti!
Be careful if you enter, for then you may see,
I am fragile like a feather, yet strong like a tree.
You are invited inside, I'd like you to visit,
but don't run away when you find me elicit.
To me art is everything, and everything is art,
It never starts with a product, it starts with a heart.
If you make it though the dark side, promise me this;
you will say you saw nothing but dysfunctional bliss.
The flowers were brighter although they were square,
My thoughts were beautiful although they were bare.
My innocence had never left, even though it was cleft.
The skies were clear & the sun was shining,
tell them we took our trip on a silver lining.
Tell them you saw love and peace, and the whole time nothing ceased.
Tell them you saw loyalty, tell them you saw trust,
tell them you saw me, trying to adjust.
Don't tell them what was there, Don't tell them what was seen,
That was just a glimpse of my normal routine.
Nothing special and nothing new,
nothing I haven't already been through!
Come with me, your visit is over,
see what I did there? You were my shoulder.
There when I needed you and we both survived,
We made it out fine, now more than ever, both very much alive.
You knew this would happen, but I've changed my mind,
I need you to come back & be a part of my rhyme <3


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Keep Pushing along!

Sometimes I feel like I am in a prison, 

this life I live is not what I visioned. 

What happened to happiness, contentment and peace?

I feel like I'm renting and my life is the lease. 

I pictured my life to get so much better, 

I wouldn't get sad, hateful or bitter. 

My family is awesome and always there, 

my friends are the best and their love I share. 

But what happens when the smiles go away?

When you're all alone at the end of the day?

When you cry and cry and nobody hears, 

it feels in your heart, like a million spears. 

your heart is shattered, 

your feelings are scattered, 

you sit in your room all alone, 

none of your friends to answer their phones. 

But one day you will be OK, 

one day you will be able to say;

I made it through all the pain, 

I made it through the days of rain!

I pulled through and I kept the faith, 

and the bitterness I had, is gone. 

But what doesn't go away is all the scars, 

all the nights, wishing on stars. 

No one said life was easy, 

no one said it wouldn't get sleezy. 

But non of that matters, it's part of the climb, 

when life throws you a lemon, trade it for a lime!

No matter how you feel, someone feels worse, 

Every now and again, someone feels cursed. 

You've just got to smile, 

Do something nice and go the extra mile,

learn from your mistakes, 

stay clear of the fakes, 

let the good times make you smile, 

let the bad times make you strong, 

and KEEP PUSHING ALONG! 

2014. Was it actually the worst year?

Lately on Facebook I have been seeing people share photos about how 2014 was by far the worst year, and I wonder why they think that?

I could be saying that too, considering my husband and I were homeless for 2 months last winter. 

Right around the time all my 'friends' got their thousands worth of taxes and not a single one of them helped or even offered. 

Made me feel sad and depressed, considering every chance we get we help as much as we can. 

Whether it be groceries, bills, gas, whatever, we are always there. 

At that time I did think 2014 was by far the worst year yet. And sometimes I just take a breath and thank God it's over. 

But then I make myself question why? Why do I think 2014 was so horrible?

Is it because while my husband and I were down and out I saw the true colors of those around me?

I found out who my friends were, and more importantly who my friends were not?

Is it because I made it through some horrible emotional issues and forgave those who have hurt me in the past?

Or maybe it's because I realized first and foremost what an amazing Family I have. 

Maybe it was such a horrible year because I got married to a man who loves me to death and would literally take a bullet for me?

But then I thought maybe it's because I learned how to set priorities and stick to them, which is return changed my life. 

Maybe it was so bad because we prayed and prayed for a good paying job for my husband and he found one. 

But it could be because we found a place to rent and have faithfully paid rent ever since? possible, huh?

This has crossed my mind too, that maybe it was the worst year ever because my life finally came together, and I felt whole and complete for once in my life. 

Or because mine and my dads relationship improved about 100%. 

But today I sit here and think, maybe it was the BEST year yet. 

I am only 21, but I am married. my life is somewhat stable, more so than it ever has been, 

and we have a home, food on the table and I know who my true friends are. 

I've learned that most of the friends I still keep in contact with are full of boloney, No matter how many times they claim to be real or want you to be honest with them, they just can't handle it. I am so thankful, so soo thankful I learned all these new things to me, I am so thankful to have a husband and be stable. 2014 was by far the BEST year yet. And I am so thankful for that. 

Don't look at the bad side of things, no matter any one of us have been through, we all came out stronger, more healthy and more wise.

 In my eyes, What could be better?