I needed you.

As I rub my eyes to clear the blur, 

I suddenly see you, and the way things were.
I feel your shadow near, even though the sun is long gone.
I hear you beg for music, but life is not done with this song.
Your soul is much alive yet your body is near the floor,
aching in your heart yet always yearning for more.
Contentment is long gone, it found its' own place,
scared of change so remaining still, just in case.
Always saying "it's funny how people change",
 knowing I, too, am "people", my how strange.
Nothing sets me apart, nothing makes me better,
but compared to you, I thought I was better!
How dare I even be compared at all,
you're so low to me, I've made my call.
The blade has been my home for too long,
feeling as if that is where I belong.
But I knew all along, my vision was clear,
 what I need now, is seldom near.
Feeling inside as if you're a mistake,
is a sadness that is hard to ever shake.
But one day I will, and then I will smile,
knowing my soul is one in few, who survived the extra mile.
I hope I see you that day, I want you to feel my joy,
soak up my energy and beg for more.
Life will never be the same, and then I will know,
That after all, you made my heart glow. <3